The days grow longer it seems. I got home from work aboyt 2 hours ago to an empty house. Weird. I need to find some kind of an outlet. This is fucking strange. My whole life is completly changing before my eyes. There is nothing I can do to control it. I am scared. I think more scared then I have ever been in my life. Yet I know I will be ok. I have gone through everything else in my life this is just another step. I need to learn how to depend on myself. I havent done that ever in my life. I need to fucking grow up and be a woman. I am lonely at night. My bed is empty. Angry thoughts running through my head. Am I really that bad?